Hush, hush

Currently Listening: "Holland 1945" by Neutral Milk Hotel



I really do miss my brother's long hair. He got it buzzed about two weeks ago. He just seems so different. Like, cutting his hair caused a drastic personality change. With his hair he was all about heavy metal -- Black Sabbath, Insane Clown Posse, Pantera, Iron Maiden, etc, etc. After he got buzzed, he's now all about joining the Air Force and doing football and everything. Not that I don't like where he is now... I just miss the old him, if that's understandable.

This weekend was a blast. Saturday I went to the Roanoke Fall Festival, which was neat. We watched the parade, got candy thrown at us -- really hard. We went to Starbucks, had it for the 3rd time ( I swear I don't have a problem) and then returned for the Demolition Derby. It was amazing, in all aspects. I suppose I do still have a lot of little-town in me, because watching old cars smash each other all to shit amuses me like no other. Blue, a friend of my family's almost won - 2nd place. We were all really proud of him.

Sunday I went on the AIDSWalk downtown. It was actually really moving. I dunno if any of you remember the AIDS exhibit from last year, some of the people from the pictures were there. It was really eye opening. To be around those suffering from such a terrible disease. The walk itself ... well, we got caught up in a slightly competitive walking group - so by the end we were all exhausted, sweaty, and tired. But it was worth it. ... might I mention that amount of condoms I recieved is more than enough to last a sexually active couple over a week. Haaa - maybe I'll pass them out to the older Trick-or-Treaters this year. "PRACTICE SAFE SEX KIDDIES"

.. Yeah.

I'm also going to try this fasting idea that Siddhartha tried. I'm gonna keep an account of it in my journal, and then paste it on here. Maybe it'll give you a little insight into me, what I think about, and maybe prove I'm not as shallow as I seem. It's all a facade I tell you, A FACADE. I'm excited, to say the least. It begins tomorrow at 6 AM sharp.

Well, it's now 9:57 and I've got three minutes to find my remote and change to FX for the 2nd episode of the new season of Nip/Tuck. The show fascinates me endlessly. The emotions of the charaters, the patients and what they want done, the raw sexuality of the show itself is so new to me, it's almost like a dirty little secret that I watch it.